National Day

090808 sat was not a good day for mi.

Alot of thing happen and i am not happy. Until i went drinking i then feel happy.
In the morning is sms sylvia i maybe not joining them for the watch fireworks at nite as i didn't sleep the whole nite when i was home at 3 am. And i toss until 6a.m I'm still very awake and my eye was opening so wide and looking at the ceiling. I also cant take medicine due to drinking. Haha Can imagine that if i eat the medicine now? I think i will be lying in the hospital liao. PI PU PI PU !!!! watch tv and serve net then Around 1 plus. decided to go out and look see look see. ( someone taught mi. Go out and walk in between the ppl and feel that i am one of them in) Very funny is this someone i haven even meet him b4. We onli contact thru fone and chat on the fone. But is relax to know him, He knws how to make ppl laugh when sad, Listen to your problems, Console you and even give advise. Thank you to you Mr Goh.

Ytd i nv talk much to bear. I also dunno why jus keep quiet and look at him then walkout or face back him. Until after lunch at 3 pm. I went to his room to sleep. [ i think back also funny, i also dunno how i got to his hse, i jus follow my foot steps and then listening to mp3 then took the bus and walk ]

* back to the topic.

I went to his room and sleep. But i still cant sleep so i jus close my eye and pretend to sleep. But think after a while i realli fall asleep then he come and hug mi and sleep I jus simply love the feeling of him hugging mi and sleep i then feel there is a warmth. After a while My nites mares come liao. I dream that all ppl in ofc are coming after mi and forcing mi until i cant make it already. I cried and i also dunno that my crying is im realli crying. Bear wake mi up and ask mi wad happen. I so drowzy then i fall asleep again. I think i realli sleeping liao. I jus heard him calling mi but my eye jus cant open. Peace for a while liao, later the nitemares come again. I realli very scare. Bear wake mi up and ask mi wad happen i jus keep quiet and went out to the rooms lay on the sofa and cry. But 2 min later later i wen to his room again. This time i give mi a sms.

" I dun wan to be your burden"

He immediate grab mi and so serious and look at mi asking mi is it i dun wan him? His tears Flow down. The fact is i dun wan him to think that i am sick and i am a burden to him. I rather i suffer alone and he can be free from mi and not having any problems. But i am wrong. He told mi very seriously he wun let mi suffer alone. he pull mi up and i cried like nobody business. I really very scare. I dun wan this sickness to be with mi . I wan to be free from this sickness. I hug him tightly and cry Until like goldfish. He promise mi he wun lei mi suffer alone. He wan mi to take the medicine and everything will be normal.


After crying both hungry searching for foods liao. We went to eat the zhu chao. Ordered one curry fish head . Yum yum very nice hmm... but too satly liao. Then one tou fu and one black peper beef . are you hungry liao? Guess all this cost $35.50. Is it cheap? I think yes ba cos got the fish head. Too bad he got work , Nite shift. Then cant realli acompany him.


JWSS, When you all wan to go out? I realli wan to have nite lifes. Chalet time ba on this coming fri.Think it will be a releaxing time for mi. I will tell you all more ok? I dun mind sharing wif you all.


ps. Drinking realli make mi happy.